“There is surely a future hope for you, and your hope will not be cut off.” Proverbs 23:18 NIV
During Watch Night Service, my pastor, in Charlotte, posed the question, “What does 2011 look like for you?” as his sermon title. An obvious question for the occasion. However, for me, an obvious or easy answer did not follow.
This is a question that many have posed to me days leading up to 2011 and days since entering 2011. And, I have had the same answer each time, “I have no clue”. That is SO not a good answer. By now, I should be able to run off a list of my personal and professional goals. By now, I should be able to visualize what my 2011 will look like, at least for the first three months…shouldn’t I? For the past few months or so, I have been really fighting with the question, “What’s next?” Since turning 40 this past summer, I have been having my own “mid-life crisis”. I don’t know what I want to do, where I want to go, what my bucket list is….NOTHING!
Is there anyone out there where I am right now?
Last week, I shared what I learned about myself in 2010, Net/Net: I enjoy my professional work. I LOVE living in Charlotte. And, I have recently concluded that I am a functioning introvert.
This, the first full week of 2011, I have concluded that in a nutshell 2011 looks like this…me “getting a life”! It’s as simple as that. I need to get a life. There is no one to blame but myself for the lack of “life” I am experiencing. There is no one to blame but myself if my phone doesn’t ring with an available male “option” on the other end. There is no one to blame but myself if I still don’t know how to get comfortably around town. God has blessed me with great qualities that I cannot continue to keep hidden behind my work, my church responsibilities and my house door.
For more than 7 years, I have given my all to my clients…yes, because it pays the bills, but also because it served to occupy my time. I moved to Charlotte 4 years ago and can count on my hands, maybe adding a toe or two, the number of times I have gone out…remember I am newly self-described/discovered functioning introvert. BUT, this year I am vowing to do better. God has blessed me with a wonderful home, with AWESOME friends, support and options. And, in 2011 I am going to take full advantage of them all.
So, as I continue to walk in transparency, I share where I was, where I am and where I am going. I look forward to keeping you abreast on the exciting things that I will experience on this new road I am venturing out on. Pray my strength! It’s been a minute since I focused on me…but, I am ready.
Walk in faith. Live in love.
Mo Wood
